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title: 'The Struggles of Perfectionism and the Quest for Greatness' | ||
date: '2023-11-11' | ||
description: 'w' | ||
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I have a strange problem. I only settle for the best. Suboptimal is | ||
unacceptable. This desire for perfection applies to my work ethic and bleeds | ||
into how I treat my relationships. I have high expectations for my friends. | ||
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But I wasn’t having my expectations always met. This led to some | ||
dissatisfaction. I learned that the only way to circumnavigate this was to lower | ||
my expectations. But for relationships, that sucks! Relationships are such a key | ||
and significant component of our lives, so having high expectations for your | ||
friends is undeniably good. If you put in lots of effort and compassion into | ||
your relationships, you better be reciprocated. The unfortunate and harsh | ||
reality is that if your expectations of others are not met, you either: | ||
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1. Cut them off. Growing pains | ||
2. Settle for “good,” not “great.” | ||
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So, really, this “struggle” of having high expectations for my friends was not a | ||
struggle at all. But still, the general idea of only expecting the best raises | ||
some questions. | ||
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- Am I really in the position of having high expectations? Or are these | ||
unrealistic? Do I have a | ||
[Bias blind spot](https://www.cmu.edu/news/stories/archives/2015/june/bias-blind-spot.html)? | ||
- When, if at all, do you stop growing as a person? Do you take breaks from | ||
growth? Keep in mind how your reference points may shape your perception of | ||
how much growth you have. It relates to Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and the | ||
part on self-actualization. But then, what’s the point of all this? How does | ||
this tie into happiness? | ||
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Let’s define the growth mindset. I initially had a misconception about it. A | ||
growth mindset does not mean you are constantly finding and fixing holes or | ||
finding areas to learn about/expand some expertise. A growth mindset does not | ||
entail you seeking out problems. A growth mindset is an open way to tackle | ||
problems or deal with the possibility of making a mistake. | ||
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While seeking out problems to fix can lead to tremendous growth, it takes an | ||
absurd amount of energy. You need a lot of motivation, and you need a lot of | ||
effort to execute and change yourself. This is probably a once-a-year thing. Or | ||
it will come whenever you feel like you’re stagnating. | ||
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> But wouldn’t it be nice if you always were seeking out challenges? | ||
Sure, it may lead to greater growth. But this is not a facet of life that leads | ||
to greater happiness. Excessive growth may lead you to become estranged from | ||
friends. It’s OK to share learnings and expect a lot from friends, but becoming | ||
enveloped in growth and losing touch and human connection is not okay. The | ||
“grind and retire early” folk are in a similar trap. | ||
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I also want to be extraordinary. But I only know what I don’t want to be. I | ||
don’t want to stagnate. I don’t want to be closed-minded. I don’t want to be | ||
obsessed with work. I don’t want to be unempathetic. I don’t want to be the | ||
stereotypical engineer. | ||
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I also don’t think it’s fair to expect the best/give all the time. You can’t | ||
give undivided attention 100% of the time. After all, studies show that giving | ||
your partner 15hrs/week of undivided attention is good for maintaining a healthy | ||
relationship. You can’t have every conversation follow your definition of | ||
perfect. But what if it was possible? Why not chase it? It feels so shitty | ||
giving up that dream of chasing excellence. | ||
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Maybe I’ve reached too far. Perhaps all this could be summed up into | ||
“unrealistic expectations.” But again, everything online says that even | ||
unrealistic expectations are good to have. They just don’t mention that perhaps | ||
there’s a decision to make when you get disappointed. You cut out the bad. | ||
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Still, in terms of relationships, it is uncertain to decide when you need to cut | ||
out the “good” for the “great.” Sometimes this decision is easy, maybe some | ||
friends are detrimental to your health and genuinely bad influences. Sometimes | ||
this is hard. You have to find the “great.” |